Best Double Of My Life…So Far

“For the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: ‘If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?’ And whenever the answer has been ‘No’ for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.” – Steve Jobs

ChaosOfStarsWhen I turned 22, my then boss told me that it would be the best double of my life. As I looked at him questioning his statement, he said: “When you’re 11, you’re too young to know what life’s about so you’re having fun, but you’re also don’t know what’s going on. When you’re 33, you already have responsibilities, a family, maybe kids. When you’re 44, you’re hitting your midlife crisis. And so on. But 22, 22 is the best because you’re old enough to know what’s going on around you, what you like, but not old enough to be overwhelmed by responsibilities.” I don’t remember much about the year I was 22. I know I was finishing college; I already had an amazing job working for an advertising photographer, so in a way it was a great year, but I don’t know if I could call it the best year of my life. I know for sure that 29 was way better than 22 as 29 brought me the love of my life just 2 days into it.

Now as I take a step into 33, I don’t know what the future holds, but I know this will be the best year of my life so far. Better than 22, better than 29, definitely better than 32, which made it a point to test me in every way possible and see how much I can be pushed until I break. I’m grateful for the challenges, yet I welcome a new year with new commitments, new adventures, a year full of love, of feeling loved beyond measure and loving beyond measure, a year in which all the planets align in my favor and everything takes off in a brilliant way.

As for the years I leave behind, you’ve taught me so much about who I am, who I choose to be around me, about all the people who love me and all the people I love. I’ve traveled the world and I’m ready to travel some more, I’ve opened myself to new things, I even recently switched from an iPhone to and Android (Something I said I would never do…hahaha!). And I’ve also done things that I’m not proud of, things that I will not mention here as I refuse to dwell on that part of me and I’d rather instead focus on the person I want to become every day. Deepak Chopra says that we need to “Stop looking for the right person and become the right person.” As I stand here today, feeling younger, more beautiful, more fulfilled and happier than I did at 22, I know that I am becoming the right person and that I have already found the right person.

I haven’t been as vigilant as Steve Jobs, I haven’t asked myself every day if this is what I would want to be doing if it would be the last day of my life, but at least for today, for this week for as long as I can remember until I forget and I need to be reminded again, I choose to wake up in the morning with that question in my head.

Life is full of beautiful unexpected moments that show up when you least expect them, but are nevertheless important and sometimes, even life-changing. Today and every day moving forward, I choose the freedom to be open to those life-changing moments.

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